Hello, I’m Shibe :D
Nice to meet you!
If you're reading this, you're probably a member of our community and at least a little interested in what this is about, and I want to be completely upfront about what this is and where your money goes.Who am I?
I’m the 24/7 lifestyle DiaperCuck found on Twitter, Bsky and JFF under either DiaperCuckLife, DiaperCuck’s nursery, or Lockedliltot.
I have two daddies who love me very much and have lots of big boy sex while I play with toys in my nursery or sleep in my crib!I'm incontinent. Not roleplay incontinent, actually incontinent. I leak urine constantly and I've been in diapers around the clock for a long time now. I've done the full medical workup and there is nothing to fix. Pelvic floor therapy did nothing except give me homework. The doctors have confirmed what I already knew, which is that this is chronic and it isn't going away.But here's my problem. I'm stuck in the worst possible middle ground. I still get sudden urges. I still sometimes feel like maybe, just maybe, I could make it to the toilet. So I rush, I try, and I fail, and I end up standing there having wet myself like a kid who never got potty trained right. Over and over. It's honestly the most distressing part of my entire condition. The diapers don't bother me. The false hope does and the sensations that may sound erotic to some are mentally taxing day after day as those alarm bells ring in my head.So I'm doing something about it. I'm raising funds for a sphincterotomy and bladder neck incision, a real surgical procedure performed by real urologists, that will take away what little control I have left. After this surgery I will be fully, permanently, completely incontinent. No more urges I can act on. No more trying. No more failing. Just diapers, forever, with zero say in the matter.UPDATE: **
And here's something else that comes with this.
They also can modify my surgical plan to make my weenie limp forever and I plan on taking them up on it so my little weenie doesn’t strain in chastity anymore!The hope is that after this surgery my doodle will be limp for good. No more morning wood. No more random stiffies in a diaper. No more anything. Just a soft, useless little thing tucked in my padding that doesn't do anything anymore except drain. For a lot of you in the chastity and babyfur crowd, I know that's not a downside, it's part of the point. Permanent chastity built right into the surgery, no device needed, no taking it off for a break. It's just gone. Of course, I love my cage and will still wear it I just won’t have nearly as many skin issues from getting night erections anymore.For the medical minded among you, what will be happening and has been approved is an established urologic procedure most often done for spinal cord injury patients. It involves cutting the muscles that hold urine back so the bladder drains freely. Erectile dysfunction is a known outcome when the nerves in that area are disrupted. It's permanent. There is no undo button. That's the point.For my more kinky friends, you may be wondering what your donation buys. Beyond a better quality of life for myself, it buys a world where I physically cannot wear underwear ever again and a world where because of my bladder neck no longer functioning I will spurt my loads into my bladder instead and have dry orgasms for good!
Where the potty is a piece of furniture that has nothing to do with me. Where the last little scrap of my toilet training gets cut away on an operating table and I wake up as someone who will spend the rest of their life padded, checked, and changed.
Where my peepee is just along for the ride, soft and pointless, never getting hard again.
Right now I can still try to hold it.
After this, trying won't even be a concept that applies to me.Where the money goes:
The procedure is being done abroad at an accredited hospital because no insurance covers making yourself incontinent on purpose, obviously. The fund covers:
• Surgeon and hospital fees
• Anesthesia
• Pre op testing and consultations
• Travel and lodging for surgery and recovery
• Post op supplies and follow up care
• A serious stockpile of diapers for the new normalAnything raised beyond the goal goes straight into ongoing diaper supplies, because this is a lifetime commitment and I'm going through them a lot faster once there's no holding anything back.Why donate:
Because you get it. Some of you dream about losing control for real and know you'll never actually do it. Some of you love the idea of someone going all the way, past the point of no return, no safeword, no going back.Some of you are into permanent chastity and the idea of a dick that just stops working forever because of a surgery someone chose to get. I'm actually doing it, and you can be part of making it happen. Every dollar is a dollar toward the day I sign the consent form and hand over my continence and my function for good.
I'll post updates through the whole process. Consultations, the date getting booked, the trip, and yes, the aftermath, so everyone who contributed gets to see exactly what they helped make permanent.
Thank you for reading, and thank you for helping me take my final step away from undies for good.